"Falling in love is dangerous but isn’t that what we live for? To have someone love everything about us even the things we hate about ourselves? Someone to tell you you’re acting up but won’t leave your side even when they’re mad at you. But why as humans are we so afraid to let people in? Why do we run from the very thing we want? It’s like we like pain and misery because we are the ones hurting ourselves and not allowing someone else to hurt us. I have someone who is everything that I have ever wanted in a person but I am so afraid to let them in that I know I’m pushing them but I don’t know how to let go of my fears. I know that will be the death of me. Constantly comparing everyone to people who have hurt me in my past. But I’ve been hurt so much that I really don’t want to endure that pain again. Knowing that you opening up to someone completely gives them the power to hurt you like you’ve never hurt before is a scary ass thought and it’s one that’s unsettling to me. On the other hand that person could make you the happiest you have ever been. I have a bit of a problem trusting people in general and I know that I probably always will because I start off trusting people too much and they end up fucking me over so I now have a wall up that I don’t even know how to break down so how can I expect someone else to. I don’t want to ruin something great because of fears but it’s something that is going to take time to push those fears away and hopefully he is patient enough to wait for me…. Because up to this point no has been."